salam.aval begam eshgh durugh nashode del,del dg vase asheghi nist........
man puorya 19 sale hasam ,az khanevade motevaset sale 2vom rahnamiy ke budam ye ham kelasi dashtam be esme pedram ,ke az avale rahnamaiy ba ham ham kelas budim 2vome rahnamaiy ba ham kheli ba ham khub shodim ye joraiy khune yeki ye khahar dasht 1 sal az ma kochik tar ,mano pedram miraftim dame madresashon donbalesh , 2 mahi gozasht (man moadelam ta on moghe 19 kam tar nemishod,khar khon)ye refigh dasht be esme mahsa(zendegi)pedram tu madrese bem goft tu chera ba kac du nemishi , goftam tu divoonei ke dus mishi che gohi khordi ke be manam migi dus sham,goft in mahsa duse khaharam ta hala ba kasi dus nashode mese khodete ,besh begoo bebin mituni mokhesh koni ,goftam chert naguo , dg chizi nagooft ta zang khordo tatil shodim raftim dame madrese khahare pedram , ke ba mahsa omadan biron ,pedram rafte bud pishe zeydesh omadan pishe man bahare (khahare pedram )goft pedram kojas goftam alan miad yehoo nemidunam chi shod havasam raft be mahsa ensafan tu zibaiy kam nadasht ,kheliam sangin bod ,yehoo didam yeki jolom das tekon mide pedram bud goft kojaiy baz chio hesab mikoni?
khandidamo raftim tu rah pedram hey harf mizad man havasam hamash be mahsa bud ke didam mahsa dare khoda hafezi mikone reside bud khunashun. raft khune 2,3 ruz gozasht didam daram ghati mikonam be pedram goftam dasan chie bavar nemikad,kholase razi shod be khaharesh bege har roz ke mididamesh halam badtar mishod bade3 4 hafte didam dg nemitunam to rah ke dashtim miomadim sedash kadam goftam 1 lahze karet daram pedramo didam ke hang karde bud omad jolo besh goftam bahare bet goft .goft are goftam dg taghat nadAram .goft pourya (delam ab shod vaghti goft )man dokhtare dor done babamam age babam befahme ...
goftam yani na?
hichi nagoft ,nafahmidam chi shod ye hoo goftam mahsa duset daram ,yehoo bargasht negam kard (vay khoda che cheshaiy)goft manam daram ,raft khune dg az on rooz shbo rozam malom nabud az fadash mano masa ba ham miomadim pedramo bahare 10 ghadam jelo tar man migoftam dusesh daram ,onam be man migoft .
nafahmidam chishod emtehane khordad 2 rahnamaiy resid 5maham az dusimon migzasht har rozam divone tar az roze ghabl mishodim .moghe emtehaan kamtar ham dgaro mididim shabaye sakhti dashtim.khob akhe on moghe mobil kac nadasht ke bade emtehana ashod masayna khnevade maye dari budan turi ke poole mashine babash az khune ma bishtar bud ,kholase gozasht mahsa vas in ke mano bebine be mamanesh goft ba man duse,dasht mehr mah miomad ke mahsa gofte ke bayad az inja berim 4bande ,on roo ta ghorob tu baghale ham gerye kardim ta jaiy ke dg nafas namonde bud ,hala jaiy ke mikhasan beran ye mahale onvar tar bud .
kholase raftan mano pedramam rafte budim 3 vome rahnamaiy (pedar bozorge mahsa tu turkie farsh forushi dasht vase hamin babasham tajere farsh bud )vase hamin har 3.4 mah ye bar miraftan turkie ke mahsa dg az on bebad be bahone dars nemiraft ,chon be gh0ole khodesh age 1 rooz manoo nemidid on rozesh dg shabi nadasht , dg refaghatemon jaiy resid ke man be on migoftam khanumi ,on be man migoft agham ye roz baba mamanesh raftan raftan turkie mahsam majbor shod bere khune amashina ke taghriban dor bud ama amash shohar nadasht (40sale)mahsa bem goft bia amam mikhad bebinatet manam raftam y khanume khod khah az khud razi .on ta mano did be mahsa goft khosham umad salighat khube agha kocholo bia tu bebinamet raftam tu ta hala tu filmaam hamchin khuneiy nadide budam , azam soal mikad man javab midadam khunaton kojas?babat chikaras?
akhe ye bache ke hame no bad bakhti keshide bud chi dasht bege ,vali javabe hame harfasho dadam, goft khosham omad malome kheliam zerangi are dg age nabudi ke ba mahsa dus nemishodi vali dastane ashegghie dokhtare padeshaho pesare chopan faghat dastanea behtare zodtar tamom konin,narahat nashia babatam ke poole anchenani dar nemiare... mahsa goft chi migi ame ,goft dg az in badbakhtar nabud ?mahsa goft man asheghesham be shoma am rabti nadare purya pashoo berim,man saram paeen bud boghz karde budam chesham khun shode bud .pa shodam goftam ame khoda hafez ke javabi nadad mahsa dasamo keshido bord .amash goft zod bia .mahsa goft miram khune goft zang mizanam be babat migam,umadim bironye 4.5saati biruon budim masa goft pourya tu khanevade ma hame in turian faghat poolo mishnasan ag mano dus dari pash vasa ke az ham nagiran ,maro.
man bi tu nemitunam boosesh kadam goftam tamam hafash fadaye ye khale mot.dam eydbud mano mahsa har roz divoone tar mishodim mahsa goft ma eyd mirim kish tuoam baya biay goftam mahsa toam bem tane mizani?
gof yani chi?
goftam man az alan cheshm dokhtam key vasam ye das lebas migiran ke mirim khune fako famil pishe ona aberom nare.ta goftam parid baghalam gerye kad goft mano bebakhsh boosesh kadam goftam zendg az tu mage ma narahat mishm goft pas chikar konam 13 rooz nabinamet chikar konam?
goftam pas be ham ghol bedim ke be yade ham bekhabim be yade ham pa shim
midunam sakhte ama majborim .rooze 4 shanbe sori bud goft ma farda mirim on shab yadame vase avalin bar saate 12 raftam khune ta khude hamon mogheiy ke mikhastim joda shim ye lahze dasemon vel nashod.akharam dasht gerye mikad goftam masa jonee pori gerye nakon gooft akhe...dg gerye nakard resondam sare koche raft khune manam raftam khune.tu eyd taze fahmid ey dade bidad hala mifahmam mahsa vase chi migoft chikar konim dg vaghean divoone budam shomal budim khune hichki nemiraftam 13 rooze nahs rooze 13 bedar bud didam daran vase raftan barname mirizan yehoo tamame vojodam shad shod ,kholase omadim raftam madrese didam hame umadan ela pedram bade madrese raftam dame khunashon didam kac javab nemide raftam dame madrese mahsa vasadam yehoo didam paham shol shode nagoo mahsamo tu chesham didam doid tarafam omad baghalam raftim tu koche khalvat hesabi del az in chan roozi ke nadidim ham dgaroo dar avodim goftam bahare umade goft na ...
fada raftam madrese az pedram khabari nabud mano mahsa har rozz ham dgro mididim ama delam vas pedram tang shode bud 2 haft gozasht sare kelas budam umadan jeloye dare kelas goftn karet daran raftam biron didam pedram tu daftare ta did manu umad ham dgaro baghal kadim yehoo didam meshki poshide goftam chi shode goft pourya pourya... zad zire gerye goftam chi shode goft madarm mord ,fahmidam madaresh tu eyd tasadof mikone mimire ...
goft mikhad parvandasho bgire goftam chera goft nemitonam 1hafte gozasht dobare didamesh sedash kadam javabamo nadad doidam donbalesh goft pourya dg dusi mano to tamom shod goftam chera dg hichi nagoft .dg az on roz hata javabe salamamo nadad dg vaghean dusmon tamom shod bahaream ba mahsa ghahr kard asan nafahmidim chi shode,kholse mano mahsa dg bavar dashtim zano shoharim.ta in ke dobare emtehaanaye khordad resido didane ma kam shod bazam rozaye sakht onam che sakhti.on roza ahangaye (siavash ghomeyshi)shode bud ham zabonam ta roze akhare emtehan ke raftam jeloye madreseye mahsa dobare didamesh ama in dafe dg pam shol nashod ghalbam shol shod ye lahze ehsas kardam vasade umad pisham koli ba ham hAf zadim ghorbun sadaghe ham raftim mahsa ye cd man avode bud ye ahang az (ebi)gozasht goft to ke nabudi ino gosh mikadam ta arom sham.pourya khar khon madrese on salo ba moadele 17 gozarondam.ke hichki bavar nemikard kholase gozasht man bayad miraftam dabirestan kole tabestono ba ham budim ba dokhtar khale man miraftim biroon ke dg mahsa shode bud refigh fabe dokhtar khalam .raftam 1 dabiresan ke yeki az dusm ke ebtedaiy bash dus budam didam baz ba ham dus shodim(shahin)2mahi gozasht didam mahsa rohiash kharabe goftam chizi shode goft amam gir dade ke man bayad ba kac ke on peyda kade dus sham .
ke donyam dg kharab shod goftam chi migi tu ke hanoo bacheiy goft nemidunam raftam pish madare mahsa eltemas kadam be khoda ghasam mesle bache zar zadam ama on migoft ke hamechi dase babaye mahsast .goftam pas nazare mahsa chi be mahsa goftam ba babat harf bezanam goft na on moghe man bashgahe koshti miraftam ye roz ke dashtam miomadam dg didam rahi nadaram vaghean mikhan mahsamo begiran, raftam dame khune mahsa midunesam mahsa nis kelas miraft zang zadam madaresh javab dad daro baz kard goft bia tu raftam didam ye aghaiy ro mobl nesheste raftam jolo besh salam kardam pa shod goft salam aghaye farhad che khabar az koh be koja resondi nafihmidam manzoresho.hichi nagoftam babaye mahsa bud raft tu ye otagh bad madaresh goft karet dare raftam tu otagh kheli tarside budam ama dg harchi bashe az mahsa vasam mohem tar nabud ke...
goft mahsa ro dus dari goftam kheli goft pas khoshbakhtish mikhay goftam malome ,goft khob tu chikar mituni vasash bekoni goftam yani chi goft asan nesfe chizaiy ke alan dare mitoni besh bedi goftam yanni chi am age bege vasash mimiram gof khob giram ke mordi badesh chi goft alan ye khasegar dare kheli pool dare mitone khoshbakhtesh kone goftam man asheghe mahsam chon pool nadaram bayad eshghamo az das bedam pas delam chi agha man bi mahsa hicham goft man hafamo zadam age dusesh dari kari kon ke zod tar azad del bekane ba gerye zadam biron chasbidam be khoda ke chera babam pool nadare ke man ahsamo begiram,chera ,chera???????
on shab dg daghone daghon budam ta sob gerye kardam fada madrese naraftam dg bashgah naraftam faghat fk mikadam bade 3 rooz be in recidam ke babaye mahsa ras mige age mahsa bebine man nemitonam on chizairo ke to khune babash dasht nadaram besh bedam azam zade she pas nabayad bezaram zajr bekeshe bayad bezaram khoshbkht she bade2 rooz raftam pishe mahsa ta manoo did doid tarafam akhe khoda in che haghie kasio enghad dus dashte bashi bekhatere pool az das bedi...
gof koja budi zendg?goftam mariz budam goft bia berim tu park mikham nazamo bekesh (ey khoda daram degh mikonam ke)goftam nemitonam bayad zod beram goft pourya tui?!
asan bat ghharam goftam mahsa maikham bat haf bezanam ,goft na manat keshiam ghabol nis(vay vay eshghame khodaaa)goftam na bia moheme goft pourya nakone tu chizit shode goftam na,rftim tu park ta neshestim dasamo gereft goft zendgie man cheshe mano tahvil nemigire nemidonesam chi begam, yehoo goftam dg base khoshk esh zad goft chi?
goftam tu bayad ba on yaro ezdevaj koni faghat khandid ,goft na tu ye chit has goftam mahsa man bache badbakhtam asan bedarde tu nemikhoram tu yeki mikhay mese khudet babat ras mige man hichi nadaram faghat mitunam zendgmo bet bedam taze mage zendg ye badbakht cheghad arzesh dare?
goft pas babam bet hafi zade midonam chikar konam ,pa shod ke bere goftam na harfe khodame yehoo vasad goft chi gerye konan raft .manam enghad gerye kadam ke tu park khabam bord 1hafte gozasht vaghean age begam bavar kardani nis adame75 kiloiy shode bud40 kilo faghat nafas shod bud ghazam didam taghat nadaram raftam dame madrese ke yavashaki bebinamesh didamesh taghat nayavordam raftam jelo omad pisham goft tu hamon pourya k migofti vase to hame chio tahamol mikonam tuiy?
dg chi dashtam begam faghat goftam mahasa man ghasam mikhoram esme bachamo mahsa bezaram goft yani tamom goftam majboram goft faghat bedon to nakhasi...
goft manam esme bachamo harchi bezaram pourya nemizaram ke namard beshe bad raft.madrese maro bord ordo esfehan goftam bere az saram ama...
man mondam tanhaiyo bikasi 3sal gozasht ama bikhod emtehane khordad man 2 ta darsamo oftadam 10 mordad bud raftam pishe dokhtar khalam goftam az mahsa khabar dari goft ke ba on yaro ezdevaj nakarde raftam dame dareshon enghad vasadam ta omad biron raftam jolo ta mano did vasad bad saresho andakht painoraft sedash kadam va nasad raftam jelosh goftam mahsa majboram goft pourya man asheghetamo mimonam bet hagh midam midonam vase khodam in karo kadi ama tanam nemizashti ye 2saat baham budim ke goft man bayad beram khune goftam age ham dgaro nadidm man sare harfam asam esme bacham goft manam esme bacham pourya mizaram ke mard bar biad,vase akharin bar tu baghale ham gerye kadim che geryeiam ba ye boos inam tamom shod masam raft...
dg ba kac natonesam dus sham raftam 3dabirestan ba 2 nafar dus shodam ama 1hafteam natonestam bemonam ye roz dorst roze ashora bud didamesh ke khoshk shodam shabesh khune yeki az bacheha buadim ke dokhtar khalam z zad gof bia mahsa umade mikhad bebinatet raftam didam masam zendgm ba ye marde dg bod goft in nAmzadame be onam goft inam dadash pouryame ke daghon shodam ba shenidane kalame dadashi ke goft.
on roz tamom shod ta shenidam aroosi kadan masaye man dg male man nabode beki begam .
ye rooz pesar amom goft bia berim biroon ba namzadam rafitm ama khahare namzadesham bud ke mikhas ba man ashna beshe (kheliam vazeshon khob bud)har kari kard man natonestm dg be kac del bebandam.
ta inke yeroz baba mamanam raftan shomal arosi mashino gozashtan vase man hamed ke 4sali bud bash dus budam goft ye ja aroosie mno bebar bereson fadasham gharar bud ba bache ha berim shmal resondamesh raftam khune ye dosh gereftam umadam biron hamed zang zad goft bia man tanham manam tanha budam goftam miam rafftam ke ye kash pam mishkasto nemiraftam residam zang zadam hamedd umad biron ba ham raftim tu vaghean ke arosie shakhi bud khanevade hamedam budan pishe ona budim mano hamed kamiam raghsidam ye hoo havasam raft be ye dokhtar ke didam dare negam mikone bad didam kheili miad tarafam hamed goft khahare domade ,goftam esmesh chie?
mahsa(na on mahsa) hamed goft man az dokhtar khalash khosham umade tu ba on dus sho man az tarighe to ba dokhtar khalash dus sham .goftam tu ghalat kadi shab raftim khune ma sob saat 5 pa shodim harkat kadim be samte shomal tu rah hamed hey azyat mikad migoft tu bayad ba mahsa dus shi manam dg hasas shode budam .migoftam nagu az shomal umadim fada shab didam hamed zang zad dare mikhande goftam chie goft bia dame daremun karet daram sari mashino atish kardamo raftam residam umad tu mashin goftam chie didam hey mikhande mige mar az puone badesh miad dare khonash sabz mishe goftam chie ke goft mahsa shomarasho dade be khaharam bedam be tu ...
goftam na ta in ke ye roz raftim khune hamedina khune madar bozorge mahasa am vahed baghalie hamedina bud aroso domadam ta chan vaght unja zendg mikadan hamed goft bayad zang bezanam, zadam bash sohbat kadam fardash gharar gozashtam vaghti az dor didamesh yehoo ehsas kadam dusesh daram raftim tu ye koche khalvat goft sarde gereftam baghalam 2roz gozasht didam dare vabaste mishe bem besh goftam mahsa man alaki bat dus shodam man az dokhtara mitarsam ke hanoohafam tamom nashde bud didam ashkesh dar umade umad baghalam bem ghol dad ke tanham nazare az nazare khanevade taghriban be ham nazdik budim goftam bashe pa manam hasam bat ta tahesh 4 mah az dusi mon gozashte bud bavaram nemishd dobare be kac del bastm ama jorat nadashtam besh begam divonasham mitarsidam bepare chon vaghean dusesh dashtam hata hame chimo besh goftam shode bud zanam baham biron miraftim ta inke ye nafar be esme sorosh ke duse hamed bud bem goft ye maghaze zade be tamirkar mobil niaz darn 1 mah onaj budam alaghamon be shedat ziad shode bud vaghean ashghsh budam sorosh goft man zeydam tehrane bia berim tehran pishesh mano mahsao,surosh raftim tehran pishe zeyde surosh.shab shod omadim tu utobos mano mahsa ba ham khabidim bad ke residim man goftam mahsa surosh mire onvari to bahash boro goft na man mikham shoharm biad baham ta razish kadam .bad fahmidam surosh besh pishnahad dade ama on ashegham bud javabe rad dad .
ta in ke yegane zeyde suorosh zang mizane be mano mige bayad ba man dus shi goftam man asheghe mahsam goft bayad velesh koni goftam na ,mese inke zang mizane be mahsa mige pourya bem gofte man az mahsa badam miad nemitunAm besh begam.mahsam dg az on bebad mano az cheshe khodesh andakht dg man budamo madare mahsa ke vaghan zane khubi has har kari mikhasam konam bash sohbat mikadam ,ke fahmidam mahsa be joz man ba 1 nafar dg am duse be mamanesh goftam goft na dokhtare man na .
chon adame bakhodaiy bud goftam bashe ghabul ta eyd resid ma raftim shomal mahsa khune bud ke goft man ba dadasham ,zan dadasham darim mirim shomal go9ftam movazeb bash ke yehoo suorosh zang zad goft mahsa ba 2 ta pesaro 1 dokhtare dashtan miraftan ,zang zadam be mamanesh goft dadashe zan dadashesham bude ke mahsa bem nagofte .
man tu shomal tasadof mikonam mashin chap mikone ama mahsa asan engar naengar baz 100 rahmat be mamanesh.ye chand bar zang zad 9 eyd bud masa zang zad goft man ghoran baz kadam mikham dg adame khubi sham azyatet nakonam manam ke hame chizam khodas dg divoonash shodam goftam mokhlesetam .goftam nabayad migoftam dusesh daram ke goftam bade3 ,4ruz bala saram biad gir dad goft mikham tamum konam hamash hersam midad ba pesaraye gharibe harf mizad ke khordam karde bud .dg be jaiy recde bud ke goftam ba ona bash ama mano vel nekon ke mimiram zar mizadam ama on mikhandid nemidonam shayad ina javabe namz khondaname doa khondaname etdekaf raftaname...
dg taghat nayavordam27farvardin bud madaresh goft mahsa narahati ghalbi dare velesh kon bem goft man jenaze dokhtaramam ro doshet nemizaram goft man mikham tamom konam bash gharar gozashtam tu chsham, negah kard goft dusam nadare ba sar raftan tu tire bargh .,alanam 5 mah gozashte hanoz dusesh daram divoonasham nemitunam tu chshash nega konam halgheiy ke bem dade hanoz dasame 1 sanie dar nemiaram.ama nemikham dg bash dus sham chon daghonam faghat asheghesham faghat az khoda mikham ke javabe mano bede chera ...madaresh chera in karo baham kard ...?
faghat misparam be khoda hala va misam ta javabesho begiram bad dasano kamel konam ke befahman del shekastan yani chi khoda sare jashe.
man puorya 19 sale hasam ,az khanevade motevaset sale 2vom rahnamiy ke budam ye ham kelasi dashtam be esme pedram ,ke az avale rahnamaiy ba ham ham kelas budim 2vome rahnamaiy ba ham kheli ba ham khub shodim ye joraiy khune yeki ye khahar dasht 1 sal az ma kochik tar ,mano pedram miraftim dame madresashon donbalesh , 2 mahi gozasht (man moadelam ta on moghe 19 kam tar nemishod,khar khon)ye refigh dasht be esme mahsa(zendegi)pedram tu madrese bem goft tu chera ba kac du nemishi , goftam tu divoonei ke dus mishi che gohi khordi ke be manam migi dus sham,goft in mahsa duse khaharam ta hala ba kasi dus nashode mese khodete ,besh begoo bebin mituni mokhesh koni ,goftam chert naguo , dg chizi nagooft ta zang khordo tatil shodim raftim dame madrese khahare pedram , ke ba mahsa omadan biron ,pedram rafte bud pishe zeydesh omadan pishe man bahare (khahare pedram )goft pedram kojas goftam alan miad yehoo nemidunam chi shod havasam raft be mahsa ensafan tu zibaiy kam nadasht ,kheliam sangin bod ,yehoo didam yeki jolom das tekon mide pedram bud goft kojaiy baz chio hesab mikoni?
khandidamo raftim tu rah pedram hey harf mizad man havasam hamash be mahsa bud ke didam mahsa dare khoda hafezi mikone reside bud khunashun. raft khune 2,3 ruz gozasht didam daram ghati mikonam be pedram goftam dasan chie bavar nemikad,kholase razi shod be khaharesh bege har roz ke mididamesh halam badtar mishod bade3 4 hafte didam dg nemitunam to rah ke dashtim miomadim sedash kadam goftam 1 lahze karet daram pedramo didam ke hang karde bud omad jolo besh goftam bahare bet goft .goft are goftam dg taghat nadAram .goft pourya (delam ab shod vaghti goft )man dokhtare dor done babamam age babam befahme ...
goftam yani na?
hichi nagoft ,nafahmidam chi shod ye hoo goftam mahsa duset daram ,yehoo bargasht negam kard (vay khoda che cheshaiy)goft manam daram ,raft khune dg az on rooz shbo rozam malom nabud az fadash mano masa ba ham miomadim pedramo bahare 10 ghadam jelo tar man migoftam dusesh daram ,onam be man migoft .
nafahmidam chishod emtehane khordad 2 rahnamaiy resid 5maham az dusimon migzasht har rozam divone tar az roze ghabl mishodim .moghe emtehaan kamtar ham dgaro mididim shabaye sakhti dashtim.khob akhe on moghe mobil kac nadasht ke bade emtehana ashod masayna khnevade maye dari budan turi ke poole mashine babash az khune ma bishtar bud ,kholase gozasht mahsa vas in ke mano bebine be mamanesh goft ba man duse,dasht mehr mah miomad ke mahsa gofte ke bayad az inja berim 4bande ,on roo ta ghorob tu baghale ham gerye kardim ta jaiy ke dg nafas namonde bud ,hala jaiy ke mikhasan beran ye mahale onvar tar bud .
kholase raftan mano pedramam rafte budim 3 vome rahnamaiy (pedar bozorge mahsa tu turkie farsh forushi dasht vase hamin babasham tajere farsh bud )vase hamin har 3.4 mah ye bar miraftan turkie ke mahsa dg az on bebad be bahone dars nemiraft ,chon be gh0ole khodesh age 1 rooz manoo nemidid on rozesh dg shabi nadasht , dg refaghatemon jaiy resid ke man be on migoftam khanumi ,on be man migoft agham ye roz baba mamanesh raftan raftan turkie mahsam majbor shod bere khune amashina ke taghriban dor bud ama amash shohar nadasht (40sale)mahsa bem goft bia amam mikhad bebinatet manam raftam y khanume khod khah az khud razi .on ta mano did be mahsa goft khosham umad salighat khube agha kocholo bia tu bebinamet raftam tu ta hala tu filmaam hamchin khuneiy nadide budam , azam soal mikad man javab midadam khunaton kojas?babat chikaras?
akhe ye bache ke hame no bad bakhti keshide bud chi dasht bege ,vali javabe hame harfasho dadam, goft khosham omad malome kheliam zerangi are dg age nabudi ke ba mahsa dus nemishodi vali dastane ashegghie dokhtare padeshaho pesare chopan faghat dastanea behtare zodtar tamom konin,narahat nashia babatam ke poole anchenani dar nemiare... mahsa goft chi migi ame ,goft dg az in badbakhtar nabud ?mahsa goft man asheghesham be shoma am rabti nadare purya pashoo berim,man saram paeen bud boghz karde budam chesham khun shode bud .pa shodam goftam ame khoda hafez ke javabi nadad mahsa dasamo keshido bord .amash goft zod bia .mahsa goft miram khune goft zang mizanam be babat migam,umadim bironye 4.5saati biruon budim masa goft pourya tu khanevade ma hame in turian faghat poolo mishnasan ag mano dus dari pash vasa ke az ham nagiran ,maro.
man bi tu nemitunam boosesh kadam goftam tamam hafash fadaye ye khale mot.dam eydbud mano mahsa har roz divoone tar mishodim mahsa goft ma eyd mirim kish tuoam baya biay goftam mahsa toam bem tane mizani?
gof yani chi?
goftam man az alan cheshm dokhtam key vasam ye das lebas migiran ke mirim khune fako famil pishe ona aberom nare.ta goftam parid baghalam gerye kad goft mano bebakhsh boosesh kadam goftam zendg az tu mage ma narahat mishm goft pas chikar konam 13 rooz nabinamet chikar konam?
goftam pas be ham ghol bedim ke be yade ham bekhabim be yade ham pa shim
midunam sakhte ama majborim .rooze 4 shanbe sori bud goft ma farda mirim on shab yadame vase avalin bar saate 12 raftam khune ta khude hamon mogheiy ke mikhastim joda shim ye lahze dasemon vel nashod.akharam dasht gerye mikad goftam masa jonee pori gerye nakon gooft akhe...dg gerye nakard resondam sare koche raft khune manam raftam khune.tu eyd taze fahmid ey dade bidad hala mifahmam mahsa vase chi migoft chikar konim dg vaghean divoone budam shomal budim khune hichki nemiraftam 13 rooze nahs rooze 13 bedar bud didam daran vase raftan barname mirizan yehoo tamame vojodam shad shod ,kholase omadim raftam madrese didam hame umadan ela pedram bade madrese raftam dame khunashon didam kac javab nemide raftam dame madrese mahsa vasadam yehoo didam paham shol shode nagoo mahsamo tu chesham didam doid tarafam omad baghalam raftim tu koche khalvat hesabi del az in chan roozi ke nadidim ham dgaroo dar avodim goftam bahare umade goft na ...
fada raftam madrese az pedram khabari nabud mano mahsa har rozz ham dgro mididim ama delam vas pedram tang shode bud 2 haft gozasht sare kelas budam umadan jeloye dare kelas goftn karet daran raftam biron didam pedram tu daftare ta did manu umad ham dgaro baghal kadim yehoo didam meshki poshide goftam chi shode goft pourya pourya... zad zire gerye goftam chi shode goft madarm mord ,fahmidam madaresh tu eyd tasadof mikone mimire ...
goft mikhad parvandasho bgire goftam chera goft nemitonam 1hafte gozasht dobare didamesh sedash kadam javabamo nadad doidam donbalesh goft pourya dg dusi mano to tamom shod goftam chera dg hichi nagoft .dg az on roz hata javabe salamamo nadad dg vaghean dusmon tamom shod bahaream ba mahsa ghahr kard asan nafahmidim chi shode,kholse mano mahsa dg bavar dashtim zano shoharim.ta in ke dobare emtehaanaye khordad resido didane ma kam shod bazam rozaye sakht onam che sakhti.on roza ahangaye (siavash ghomeyshi)shode bud ham zabonam ta roze akhare emtehan ke raftam jeloye madreseye mahsa dobare didamesh ama in dafe dg pam shol nashod ghalbam shol shod ye lahze ehsas kardam vasade umad pisham koli ba ham hAf zadim ghorbun sadaghe ham raftim mahsa ye cd man avode bud ye ahang az (ebi)gozasht goft to ke nabudi ino gosh mikadam ta arom sham.pourya khar khon madrese on salo ba moadele 17 gozarondam.ke hichki bavar nemikard kholase gozasht man bayad miraftam dabirestan kole tabestono ba ham budim ba dokhtar khale man miraftim biroon ke dg mahsa shode bud refigh fabe dokhtar khalam .raftam 1 dabiresan ke yeki az dusm ke ebtedaiy bash dus budam didam baz ba ham dus shodim(shahin)2mahi gozasht didam mahsa rohiash kharabe goftam chizi shode goft amam gir dade ke man bayad ba kac ke on peyda kade dus sham .
ke donyam dg kharab shod goftam chi migi tu ke hanoo bacheiy goft nemidunam raftam pish madare mahsa eltemas kadam be khoda ghasam mesle bache zar zadam ama on migoft ke hamechi dase babaye mahsast .goftam pas nazare mahsa chi be mahsa goftam ba babat harf bezanam goft na on moghe man bashgahe koshti miraftam ye roz ke dashtam miomadam dg didam rahi nadaram vaghean mikhan mahsamo begiran, raftam dame khune mahsa midunesam mahsa nis kelas miraft zang zadam madaresh javab dad daro baz kard goft bia tu raftam didam ye aghaiy ro mobl nesheste raftam jolo besh salam kardam pa shod goft salam aghaye farhad che khabar az koh be koja resondi nafihmidam manzoresho.hichi nagoftam babaye mahsa bud raft tu ye otagh bad madaresh goft karet dare raftam tu otagh kheli tarside budam ama dg harchi bashe az mahsa vasam mohem tar nabud ke...
goft mahsa ro dus dari goftam kheli goft pas khoshbakhtish mikhay goftam malome ,goft khob tu chikar mituni vasash bekoni goftam yani chi goft asan nesfe chizaiy ke alan dare mitoni besh bedi goftam yanni chi am age bege vasash mimiram gof khob giram ke mordi badesh chi goft alan ye khasegar dare kheli pool dare mitone khoshbakhtesh kone goftam man asheghe mahsam chon pool nadaram bayad eshghamo az das bedam pas delam chi agha man bi mahsa hicham goft man hafamo zadam age dusesh dari kari kon ke zod tar azad del bekane ba gerye zadam biron chasbidam be khoda ke chera babam pool nadare ke man ahsamo begiram,chera ,chera???????
on shab dg daghone daghon budam ta sob gerye kardam fada madrese naraftam dg bashgah naraftam faghat fk mikadam bade 3 rooz be in recidam ke babaye mahsa ras mige age mahsa bebine man nemitonam on chizairo ke to khune babash dasht nadaram besh bedam azam zade she pas nabayad bezaram zajr bekeshe bayad bezaram khoshbkht she bade2 rooz raftam pishe mahsa ta manoo did doid tarafam akhe khoda in che haghie kasio enghad dus dashte bashi bekhatere pool az das bedi...
gof koja budi zendg?goftam mariz budam goft bia berim tu park mikham nazamo bekesh (ey khoda daram degh mikonam ke)goftam nemitonam bayad zod beram goft pourya tui?!
asan bat ghharam goftam mahsa maikham bat haf bezanam ,goft na manat keshiam ghabol nis(vay vay eshghame khodaaa)goftam na bia moheme goft pourya nakone tu chizit shode goftam na,rftim tu park ta neshestim dasamo gereft goft zendgie man cheshe mano tahvil nemigire nemidonesam chi begam, yehoo goftam dg base khoshk esh zad goft chi?
goftam tu bayad ba on yaro ezdevaj koni faghat khandid ,goft na tu ye chit has goftam mahsa man bache badbakhtam asan bedarde tu nemikhoram tu yeki mikhay mese khudet babat ras mige man hichi nadaram faghat mitunam zendgmo bet bedam taze mage zendg ye badbakht cheghad arzesh dare?
goft pas babam bet hafi zade midonam chikar konam ,pa shod ke bere goftam na harfe khodame yehoo vasad goft chi gerye konan raft .manam enghad gerye kadam ke tu park khabam bord 1hafte gozasht vaghean age begam bavar kardani nis adame75 kiloiy shode bud40 kilo faghat nafas shod bud ghazam didam taghat nadaram raftam dame madrese ke yavashaki bebinamesh didamesh taghat nayavordam raftam jelo omad pisham goft tu hamon pourya k migofti vase to hame chio tahamol mikonam tuiy?
dg chi dashtam begam faghat goftam mahasa man ghasam mikhoram esme bachamo mahsa bezaram goft yani tamom goftam majboram goft faghat bedon to nakhasi...
goft manam esme bachamo harchi bezaram pourya nemizaram ke namard beshe bad raft.madrese maro bord ordo esfehan goftam bere az saram ama...
man mondam tanhaiyo bikasi 3sal gozasht ama bikhod emtehane khordad man 2 ta darsamo oftadam 10 mordad bud raftam pishe dokhtar khalam goftam az mahsa khabar dari goft ke ba on yaro ezdevaj nakarde raftam dame dareshon enghad vasadam ta omad biron raftam jolo ta mano did vasad bad saresho andakht painoraft sedash kadam va nasad raftam jelosh goftam mahsa majboram goft pourya man asheghetamo mimonam bet hagh midam midonam vase khodam in karo kadi ama tanam nemizashti ye 2saat baham budim ke goft man bayad beram khune goftam age ham dgaro nadidm man sare harfam asam esme bacham goft manam esme bacham pourya mizaram ke mard bar biad,vase akharin bar tu baghale ham gerye kadim che geryeiam ba ye boos inam tamom shod masam raft...
dg ba kac natonesam dus sham raftam 3dabirestan ba 2 nafar dus shodam ama 1hafteam natonestam bemonam ye roz dorst roze ashora bud didamesh ke khoshk shodam shabesh khune yeki az bacheha buadim ke dokhtar khalam z zad gof bia mahsa umade mikhad bebinatet raftam didam masam zendgm ba ye marde dg bod goft in nAmzadame be onam goft inam dadash pouryame ke daghon shodam ba shenidane kalame dadashi ke goft.
on roz tamom shod ta shenidam aroosi kadan masaye man dg male man nabode beki begam .
ye rooz pesar amom goft bia berim biroon ba namzadam rafitm ama khahare namzadesham bud ke mikhas ba man ashna beshe (kheliam vazeshon khob bud)har kari kard man natonestm dg be kac del bebandam.
ta inke yeroz baba mamanam raftan shomal arosi mashino gozashtan vase man hamed ke 4sali bud bash dus budam goft ye ja aroosie mno bebar bereson fadasham gharar bud ba bache ha berim shmal resondamesh raftam khune ye dosh gereftam umadam biron hamed zang zad goft bia man tanham manam tanha budam goftam miam rafftam ke ye kash pam mishkasto nemiraftam residam zang zadam hamedd umad biron ba ham raftim tu vaghean ke arosie shakhi bud khanevade hamedam budan pishe ona budim mano hamed kamiam raghsidam ye hoo havasam raft be ye dokhtar ke didam dare negam mikone bad didam kheili miad tarafam hamed goft khahare domade ,goftam esmesh chie?
mahsa(na on mahsa) hamed goft man az dokhtar khalash khosham umade tu ba on dus sho man az tarighe to ba dokhtar khalash dus sham .goftam tu ghalat kadi shab raftim khune ma sob saat 5 pa shodim harkat kadim be samte shomal tu rah hamed hey azyat mikad migoft tu bayad ba mahsa dus shi manam dg hasas shode budam .migoftam nagu az shomal umadim fada shab didam hamed zang zad dare mikhande goftam chie goft bia dame daremun karet daram sari mashino atish kardamo raftam residam umad tu mashin goftam chie didam hey mikhande mige mar az puone badesh miad dare khonash sabz mishe goftam chie ke goft mahsa shomarasho dade be khaharam bedam be tu ...
goftam na ta in ke ye roz raftim khune hamedina khune madar bozorge mahasa am vahed baghalie hamedina bud aroso domadam ta chan vaght unja zendg mikadan hamed goft bayad zang bezanam, zadam bash sohbat kadam fardash gharar gozashtam vaghti az dor didamesh yehoo ehsas kadam dusesh daram raftim tu ye koche khalvat goft sarde gereftam baghalam 2roz gozasht didam dare vabaste mishe bem besh goftam mahsa man alaki bat dus shodam man az dokhtara mitarsam ke hanoohafam tamom nashde bud didam ashkesh dar umade umad baghalam bem ghol dad ke tanham nazare az nazare khanevade taghriban be ham nazdik budim goftam bashe pa manam hasam bat ta tahesh 4 mah az dusi mon gozashte bud bavaram nemishd dobare be kac del bastm ama jorat nadashtam besh begam divonasham mitarsidam bepare chon vaghean dusesh dashtam hata hame chimo besh goftam shode bud zanam baham biron miraftim ta inke ye nafar be esme sorosh ke duse hamed bud bem goft ye maghaze zade be tamirkar mobil niaz darn 1 mah onaj budam alaghamon be shedat ziad shode bud vaghean ashghsh budam sorosh goft man zeydam tehrane bia berim tehran pishesh mano mahsao,surosh raftim tehran pishe zeyde surosh.shab shod omadim tu utobos mano mahsa ba ham khabidim bad ke residim man goftam mahsa surosh mire onvari to bahash boro goft na man mikham shoharm biad baham ta razish kadam .bad fahmidam surosh besh pishnahad dade ama on ashegham bud javabe rad dad .
ta in ke yegane zeyde suorosh zang mizane be mano mige bayad ba man dus shi goftam man asheghe mahsam goft bayad velesh koni goftam na ,mese inke zang mizane be mahsa mige pourya bem gofte man az mahsa badam miad nemitunAm besh begam.mahsam dg az on bebad mano az cheshe khodesh andakht dg man budamo madare mahsa ke vaghan zane khubi has har kari mikhasam konam bash sohbat mikadam ,ke fahmidam mahsa be joz man ba 1 nafar dg am duse be mamanesh goftam goft na dokhtare man na .
chon adame bakhodaiy bud goftam bashe ghabul ta eyd resid ma raftim shomal mahsa khune bud ke goft man ba dadasham ,zan dadasham darim mirim shomal go9ftam movazeb bash ke yehoo suorosh zang zad goft mahsa ba 2 ta pesaro 1 dokhtare dashtan miraftan ,zang zadam be mamanesh goft dadashe zan dadashesham bude ke mahsa bem nagofte .
man tu shomal tasadof mikonam mashin chap mikone ama mahsa asan engar naengar baz 100 rahmat be mamanesh.ye chand bar zang zad 9 eyd bud masa zang zad goft man ghoran baz kadam mikham dg adame khubi sham azyatet nakonam manam ke hame chizam khodas dg divoonash shodam goftam mokhlesetam .goftam nabayad migoftam dusesh daram ke goftam bade3 ,4ruz bala saram biad gir dad goft mikham tamum konam hamash hersam midad ba pesaraye gharibe harf mizad ke khordam karde bud .dg be jaiy recde bud ke goftam ba ona bash ama mano vel nekon ke mimiram zar mizadam ama on mikhandid nemidonam shayad ina javabe namz khondaname doa khondaname etdekaf raftaname...
dg taghat nayavordam27farvardin bud madaresh goft mahsa narahati ghalbi dare velesh kon bem goft man jenaze dokhtaramam ro doshet nemizaram goft man mikham tamom konam bash gharar gozashtam tu chsham, negah kard goft dusam nadare ba sar raftan tu tire bargh .,alanam 5 mah gozashte hanoz dusesh daram divoonasham nemitunam tu chshash nega konam halgheiy ke bem dade hanoz dasame 1 sanie dar nemiaram.ama nemikham dg bash dus sham chon daghonam faghat asheghesham faghat az khoda mikham ke javabe mano bede chera ...madaresh chera in karo baham kard ...?
faghat misparam be khoda hala va misam ta javabesho begiram bad dasano kamel konam ke befahman del shekastan yani chi khoda sare jashe.
